I'm 59 but inside, my soul feels just the same age as when I was 19. In a lot of ways, I still have the same insecurities I had as a young adult. I also have the same goals and dreams I had then.
The real me has not changed.
Oh, yes, I have learned much in the past 40 years. My focus has changed. Many experiences have shaped and molded me.
But, I'm still me.
So, I wondered if there was ever a time when I felt like a grown up.
Was it when I got married? No, it felt more like I was playing house. Except now, I actually had to clean it.
Was it when I had my first child? No way! I was scared to death and never once felt in control.
|Me feeling wild and free|
In fact, I can only remember once when I felt the crushing weight of responsibility descend on me like I was truly an adult. That was the day my husband's doctor told me my husband would never be able to work again. That was a scary day, and a day when I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders.
It's no fun feeling adult responsibilities.
I'm thankful that I had my heavenly Father to help me shoulder the load. Yes, I've had a few scary times but mostly I've learned to lean on Him. And I can go back to doing what I do best: living the dream life of a 19 year old inside my head.
This post was written in response to Writer's Workshop prompt # 1. A moment you realized you were a grown up. It was hard to come up with a moment, but I finally thought of one! For many zany responses, visit Kat's blog, Mama's Losin' It.