Wednesday, February 19, 2014

The Day I Died.



I died when I was fourteen. 

My dreams stopped on that day.  All the plans I had made for when I finished high-school came to an abrupt end. My desire to do what I wanted fizzled out.

It was gone.

I remember it well. I had been on vacation with my parents.  We had taken a road trip to visit relatives up north.

It’s ironic, but before we left on that trip, Mrs. Bates, from my church, asked me a question.  She asked me if I had ever made a public confession of my faith.  What a question!  I had been in church all my life.  I knew all the answers to any question any Sunday School teacher had ever asked me. I told her I knew all about Jesus, but she gently reminded me that if I would not confess Him before others, He couldn’t tell the Father I was one of His.

“Well, I’m not ready yet,” I said, “I’ve got things I have to do first.”


And so I climbed into the car with my folks and off we went. Sometime in the next few days, I would meet my destiny.

A few days later, Dad was driving, and I, as usual, was dreaming in the back seat of the car.  I was in a very sound sleep. In fact, I was being poisoned by carbon monoxide from a bad exhaust system. Thank God, stomachs started growling and a stop for lunch made Dad discover my plight. A doctor told Dad if he had waited longer to stop for lunch, nobody would have been able to wake me.

But it wasn’t until a few days later that I did, in fact, actually die.

I died to the old me. Not a physical death but a spiritual one.

I have been dying ever since I gave my heart to Christ and made a public confession of my faith.

But that wasn’t the end. You see, that old natural Jerralea wants to keep rising back up. The selfish desires and sarcastic personality I had all those years ago are still in there. The carnal Jerralea still exists. I just work on not letting her out.

Like the apostle Paul said, I have to die daily.  I have to let the new me live and do His will, the new creation that God is fashioning into the image of Jesus Christ.

The new me that will accomplish those dreams and desires that He has willed and put there in the first place.  My carnal dreams will do no one, least of all me, any good.  But the God-inspired dreams will accomplish His purpose and give my life meaning.

It’s a paradox.  I died when I was fourteen, yet I was born when I was fourteen.  I died to selfish dreams and ambitions but came alive to His plan and purpose. I died, yet I now live … in Him.







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5 comments:

Lyli said...

Jerralea, thank you for reminding me that "for me to live is Christ and to die is gain." Blessings :)

Joyful Reader said...

I have been reading Isaiah and am amazed at all the chances and warnings God gave His people! This is a wonderful testimony of God giving you that warning. He is so good! Praise the Lord that you took tht step. I have an uncle that is 55 that has thought that same way. Monday night he came to the Lord. Great times!

Kyliegh said...

Wow lady! Amazing job! It truly is a daily job of dying to the flesh, isn't it!? Great reminder! I do not even personally know you but I just love you! You sound like a woman on the same track I am. :) Trying to get better for our Lord!

Karyn said...

What a story! I'm so glad your folks were hungry. And good job on linking your experience to the teaching of Christ!

Diana S. said...

Jerralea, I can't even begin to tell you how much this post touched me, it literally brought me to tears. I truly related to these words you said, "The carnal (insert name) still exists. I just work on not letting her out"

Thanks so much for sharing this and please keep uplifting us with the work God is doing through you.

Be blessed :)